10162) I’m at my highest weight and I feel terrible. I can’t restrict or fast anymore, I always end up eating. I feel so fat. Almost X pounds. I’m a fucking failure.
10153) When people stare at me, I immediately think it’s because of one of my flaws. There’s no way someone would ever check me out.
I say I want to be skinny yet I am always eating. I say I want good grades yet I procrastinate until it’s too late. I say I don’t want to be alone as I put my headphones in and never talk to anyone. I say I want to be a better and happier person as I sit here and count all the ways I hate myself.
